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Friday, February 29, 2008

My Biggest Hurdle

I've been doing a Bible study online lately. (Thanks, Holly!) It's Beth Moore's Believing God series. I'm only a week and a half into the study, and I'm amazed at what God has changed in my heart and in my life. I can see Him working more and more day by day. Today I was even inspired to laugh and thank Him outloud for the blessing of a very close parking spot close to the entrance to Wal-Mart - it was pouring rain!

(If any of you are looking for a good study, or are having struggles with your faith, or are looking to grow, or just love Beth Moore, I highly recommend this study - click on the link above for more information.)

I've come to realize that one of the biggest hurdles I will have to overcome in my struggle to trust God more is dealing with the wait-and-see's of life. The times when I know that God has a specific purpose for what is happening in my life...but I can't see what it is. The times when I know what I'm supposed to do...but I'm not sure where to start. The times when I feel like there's more to the story...and I have to wait for the answers.

Patience has never been my forte. Ever. That can be excused in a child, to a certain extent, but you know what? As an adult, I'm still very impatient. Nothing frustrates me more than to be behind someone driving 43 mph in a 45 mph zone. I love Christmas, but the anticipation it all drives me batty. I think I was pregnant with Wendy for about 27 months. That's what it felt like anyway. (I wonder if this could be why my girlie is so impatient? Nah...)

As I'm learning more about God, and more about myself, and learning how to believe God instead of just believing in God, my impatience is definitely rearing its ugly head. There are some things up in the air right now, with finances, living situations, family planning, etc. James and I are working together to figure stuff out, but once you do all you can, you simply have to sit back and...wait.

And as I type that, and admit to you the struggles that I have with waiting, I can feel God's peace gently settle over me.

And so, there is hope. I will make it through the waiting. And it will be worth it.

Isn't our God fantastic?

I'll leave you with a little music from my boys:

Thursday, February 28, 2008

One kitchen sink = $80
One bottle of Sweet Pea baby wash = $3
One hooded towel from Pottery Barn = $20


One sweet-smelling pink elephant = PRICELESS!

The Lousy Mother of the Year...

After winning the Lousy Mother of the Year award in 2007 for my daughter's unnatural ability to spot a peanut butter cup, I've already secured the title for 2008.

Wendy and I were waiting for James after church last night. She wanted to run like a hooligan, and I wanted to keep her a bit more in control, so I was holding her hand. She decided to play and swing from my hand, and I let her. She thought it was funny, and then she got cranky.

Not thinking too much about it, I pulled her back up and we went on. Then I began to notice that every time we touched her right arm, she cried. When Grandpa gave her a hug, when James tried to get her attention, and when I was putting her coat on. Hmm.

We drove home, and she fussed a bit in the car. We got home and took her coat off, and her whole right arm, from above the elbow to her wrist, was slightly puffy and red. Uh oh.

We made our first ER trip last night. After an exam by a nice doctor and some radiographs, Wendy was diagnosed with Nursemaid Elbow - a dislocated elbow. It had worked its way back into place before the doctor saw her, but there was some residual swelling and pain.

I'm giving myself the Lousy Mother of the Year award because I knew this could happen! I knew someone whose 3 year old daughter dislocated her elbow under almost identical circumstances. I just never thought it would actually happen to Wendy. So no more swinging by the hands, no more picking up by the arms, and now we even have to be careful putting on her jacket. If it dislocates once, it's much more likely to happen again. Sigh.

The good news is that she's fine this morning. And I hope we never, ever have to make another nighttime jaunt to the ER!

Giveaway

Would you like to win this? I know I would. It would inspire me to step it up a notch, and leave the yoga pants at home. I might actually dress like a grownup if I had this bag...

Anyway, head over to 5 Minutes for Mom to register!

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Recipe for Self-Esteem Boost

Grungie clothes
Kneeling pad (or old towel)
Bucket
Rag
Warm water
Filthy kitchen floor


Apply grungie clothes to self. Place kneeling pad on kitchen floor; set aside. In a standard kitchen sink, place bucket and fill with warm water laced with a generous dollop of all-purpose cleaner. Toss in rag and scrub brush. While carefully kneeling on kneeling pad, vigorously scrub filthy kitchen floor with rag, using scrub brush as needed. Rinse rag and scrub brush. Repeat as needed, until filthy kitchen floor becomes sparkling.


:-)

ZZZZZ = Happiness!!

I think one of the joys of parenting is its ever-changing nature. That's definitely true of babies and toddlers; they grow & develop so quickly, parents struggle to keep up. James and I discuss parenting strategies a lot, since it seems like new developments always lead to new routines or discipline or something.

Wendy has never been a deep sleeper. She's been a good sleeper; she started sleeping through the night around 2 months old, and only has bad nights when she's sick. But when she's sleeping, any little thing can rouse her - every night when I check on her before I go to bed, her eyes pop open at the tiny "squee" of the doorknob.

Wendy is also very interested in the world around her. This was quite a disadvantage when she was an infant, especially during church. I remember looking around at similar-aged babies, calmly snoozing in pink-cheeked cherubic-ness, and here I was, wrestling a very tired but very alert baby.

And so it has taken me by surprise recently when Wendy has occasionally asked to be put down for a nap. Not verbally; she's not there yet. By her actions. For example, two days ago, she was playing while I was blogging. She went into her room, got the Binky, and yanked the Blankie out of the crib. She came back into the living room, laid down on the floor, plugged in the Binky, rubbed her nose with the Blankie, and she was out! Just like that! She's never, EVER done that!

Today I was changing her crib sheet, and she was watching me...she thought it was funny to see Momma struggle and flop that crib mattress around. As soon as everything was in place, she indicated she wanted picked up and put in the crib. When I put her in the crib she laid down, so I tucked her in with the Blankie. That was two hours ago - and not a peep!

Maybe she's finally understanding that taking a bit of a nap is a good thing - it lets you rest, and recharges your batteries for some good play time. Maybe she's still getting over last week's stomach bug.

Whatever the case, I know this:









In this house, ZZZZZ = Happiness!!

WFMW: The Toddler Edition



Anyone who has ever read this blog knows that I have a toddler. Her name is Wendy, and as of yesterday, she's 17 months old. She is my biggest source of joy, and my biggest source of frustration. She was an early walker, taking her first steps at 10 months, and hasn't stopped walking, running, or climbing since. Developmentally, she's ahead in the motor skills department.

However, she's a tad behind in the verbal development department. She understands most of what we say, and that's great. The problems come when she really wants to make her own opinions or desires known. She tries, and points, and says, "Di?" When we don't immediately respond in the desired manner, she gets frustrated, and can throw a fit of frightening proportions.

Don't get me wrong, she does say words, real, recognizable words - but only maybe 10. So as you can imagine, there are many situations for which she just doesn't have words.

Here are some things that have helped us cope with young toddlerhood:

1. Sign language. Wendy doesn't know much, but she knows some key signs - more, all done, milk, bye-bye. These are simple to learn, and have helped tremendously, especially at meal time.

2. Being firm. Even though she gets frustrated when she can't communicate with us, we've been trying to teach her that throwing a fit is NOT the answer. Throwing the fit will only get you ignored, or worse, put in time out. She can calmly try to get our attention and try again, either with signs or with toddlerspeak.

3. Distraction. When she's just being a bear, and insisting on her own way (whatever that is at the time), I can usually distract her fairly well. I get her baby doll and a book, and I sit in the rocking chair and quietly read to the baby doll. By the end of the first page, Wendy is beside me, listening and looking at the book.

4. Letting her help. She's already a big "helper." She tries to help me unload the dishwasher, and put the groceries in the pantry. This helps her feel big, which is a big deal for budding Miss Independence.

5. Letting Daddy step in. Sometimes when Wendy is pulling out her Toddler Princess attitude, all it takes is a word from Daddy to turn things around. I don't know why, but a Daddy's displeasure is much more powerful than Mommy's scolding!

These things may not work for your toddler, but they work for mine! Do you have any other suggestions I should put to use?

Head over to Rocks In My Dryer for more great tips!

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Binky Fairy?



Wendy is 17 months old today, and I need your advice. Her pediatrician told us back at her one-year visit that it would be best if she is weaned off of the Binky by 18 months. By 18 months. At the time, it seemed like we had a long time to figure it out. But now? It's, um, NOW.

Wendy didn't even take a Binky until she was about seven months old. It quickly became indispensible. We can do without it during the day, but when it comes time for a nap or bedtime, the girl wants her Binky.

Have any of you successfully weaned from a pacifier? Do you have any suggestions? Anything at all? Please?

I've heard about giving the Binky to the "Binky Fairy," but Wendy just isn't at that stage yet -she wouldn't understand. I just don't know what steps to take, other than going cold turkey.

Any ideas? Please share...

Insomnia

Do you ever have one of those nights? You know, when you just can't sleep? Just can't lay still? Can't stop thinking?

I spent all of last night flopping around in bed like a fish out of water, thinking, "If I fall asleep now, I'll still get six hours...five hours...four hours..."

And then I gave up. Inevitably, I'll be perfectly sleepy and ready to go back to bed about ten minutes before Wendy wakes up.

Monday, February 25, 2008

Happy Monday!

Since I'm almost 30 years old (yikes!!) I should be aware enough of my body and how it works to know that I should not take Unisom to help me sleep. It helps me sleep, alright...and helps me oversleep and feed groggy for the entirety of the next day. It's a good thing I don't drink; with my metabolism, I think one drink would probably put me under the table.

I did better this week, accomplishing 2 of the 5 things on my list. I consider that a success, especially since Wendy was sick for several days and we were all sleep-deprived. The most important thing is that I was able to resume daily Bible study. So far, so good.

Here are my goals for this week:

1. Make the transition from disposable to cloth diapers! We've ordered the cloth diapers, and they should arrive in the middle of the week. I'm excited and apprehensive. If we can make it work, it will really help out my monthly grocery budget!

2. Make first batch of homemade laundry detergent. I found a recipe online, and found the ingredients at Kroger. I'm going to give it a try - if it works as well as the reviews indicate, this will be another source of big savings for my grocery budget.

3. Hang dining room valance. I'm going to keep including this until it gets done!!

4. Get house completely clean. I mean the downstairs; the upstairs is a whole different problem. I've had a lot of trouble keeping to a housecleaning schedule, because I'm not starting with a clean house. I think if I can just get it clean, I can probably keep it clean as long as I stick to the schedule.

5. Organize linen cabinet. It's all a big jumble!


Another slim-pickin' week! Next week should be much better.

Monday - leftover pulled pork, potato-corn cakes, peas

Tuesday - oven-fried chicken, green beans, brown rice

Wednesday - tuna casserole

Thursday - dinner at Mom & Dad's, TBA

Friday - meatloaf, mashed potatoes, peas

Saturday - chicken spaghetti casserole

Sunday - leftovers

Saturday, February 23, 2008

Baked Potato Soup

This time of year, my cooking-related thoughts turn to soups & comfort foods. The recipe I'm sharing today is one of my favorite, and is both a soup and a comfort food! It comes together easily, and makes a big batch pretty inexpensively, so it's good for a crowd. It also freezes pretty well.

And I realize that it's called "Baked Potato Soup" and I use mashed potatoes. It's all in the interest of convenience. If you are baking potatoes anyway and want to make some extra to use in this soup, then do so, by all means. But you don't have to bake potatoes for the soup to taste great - it tastes the same either way!

Baked Potato Soup

4 large potatoes, chopped, boiled, and mashed
(You can peel the potaoes if that makes you feel better. I leave the peels on.)
2/3 cup flour
2/3 cup butter
6 cups skim milk
salt and pepper to taste
2 green onions, chopped
2 cups crisp-cooked, crumbled bacon
1 cup fat-free sour cream
5 ounces low-fat cheddar cheese (shredded)

Melt butter in a large saucepan. Slowly blend in flour with a wire whisk. Gradually add milk to the mixture, whisking constantly. Whisk in salt and pepper, and simmer over low heat, stirring constantly. When milk mixture is very hot, whisk in mashed potatoes. Add green onion, sour cream, and bacon, whisking well after each addition. Heat thoroughly. Add cheese a little at a time until all is melted in.

When serving, if you feel inspired, you can put a small dollop of sour cream on the top & garnish with cheese, bacon, & green onion. There are no rules with this soup.

For more yummy recipes, visit Saturday Stirrings at FiddleDeeDee!

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Spring Planning


I was reminded yesterday of why I like daffodils so much. It's the middle of February, complete with cold weather and brown trees, but those brave little daffodils are starting to come up - we even saw some blooming! Yay! It's like they are the poster-flower for the hope of spring.

This time of year, when it's still cold outside but visible signs of spring are appearing, my thoughts always turn to home improvement. I'm not sure why that is, but contemplating plans for the spring and summer months sure helps with the February blahs!

This year the planning will be a bit different, since we're in the midst of a Total Money Makeover, but there are still some things I'd like to do. I'd like to grow some vegetables this year. Not a full garden, because I can never keep up with one when it gets super-hot outside. I'd like to grow tomatoes, zucchini, and maybe some cantaloupe. Maybe some pumpkins for the fall. Nothing too major, and nothing I'll feel guilty about not weeding when summer comes and it's roughly 150 degrees outside.

I think I'm going to try starting my veggies from seed, which I haven't done since I was a kid. I've got a perfect spot on top of the dryer for one of those trays for starting seeds. It's right near a sunny window, but in a no-cat zone, so they won't eat my plants. I may even try to start some flowers for my front garden.

In addition to the gardening, I'd love to build a sandbox for Wendy this spring. We've got plenty of room in the fenced-in part of the backyard. There's even a shade tree we could put it under. I'd want it to be plenty big and plenty deep, so that she'd continue to enjoy it for several years. I'd also want to figure out an outside toybox, to stow away her sandy toys. A big sandbox in the shade, a comfy chair for Momma in the shade (complete with a book and iced tea, of course), and I think we'd be set for fun times!

I'm ready for spring - how 'bout you?

WFMW - getting fluid into a sick baby


Wendy has had her first stomach bug this week, and she's been pretty miserable. She wasn't eating, which isn't surprising, but she wasn't really drinking, either - and that's a BIG no-no with a high fever, vomiting, & diarrhea. I tried something I discovered when she was very little, and it still works!

When Wendy just won't drink her juice or Pedialyte or whatever, she will still take some from a syringe or a straw. I think it's the novelty of it. If I take a straw, put it in the drink, and put my finger over the end, it'll hold just enough to drip a bit into her mouth. She thinks it's fun, and it gets fluid into her a teaspoon or so at a time. A syringe works, too, but I have to be much more careful I don't squirt to quickly, or we end up with a coughing, sputtering baby.

Anyway, getting fluid into a sick baby, even if it's only a teaspoon at a time, works for me! Head over to Rocks in my Dryer for more tips!

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Once again...

Y'all are going to get tired of hearing about every time Wendy's sick. But seriously - a full week of the flu about a month ago, then a minor fever/not feeling good thing, and now, a high fever, not sleeping, not drinking, not eating, not happy kind of thing. Oh, and vomiting.

So we're headed to the doctor this afternoon. On the one hand, I don't want anything to be wrong with her. On the other hand, I want them to find something we can treat. I get really frustrated with the random viruses that make her so sick with no real treatment available.

Sigh. I'm sure I'll let you know the details. The last time I took her to the doctor in a similar condition, they put in a urinary catheter to check for a bladder infection - even though I was across the building, I could hear the screams. Sigh.

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Update: We saw a different doctor today - after all, what child on the planet gets sick when their doctor is actually working? Wendy got a head-to-toe checkup, and other than a temp of 103.5, everything was normal. That means most likely she's got her first icky stomach bug. Grandma and Grandpa are on their way over as I type with Pedialyte, crackers, and the spare blankie - the one we keep at home got a wee bit puked on.

I didn't want it to be just a virus, because I wanted something we could actively treat. However, she slept all the way home from the pediatrician (40 minutes) and since returning home half an hour ago, she's been playing and eating and drinking. Maybe it was a curative doctor visit.

Monday, February 18, 2008

Monday

Hello, Monday. Once again, I greet you grudgingly, exhausted from tending to a sick baby, behind in housework, overbudget, and discouraged. Sigh.

Let me start over:

Hello, Monday! What a bright, sunshiny morning! I have many things to accomplish, and a fresh new week in which to begin. Though I'm tired, Wendy's ailing, and we're a bit behind, we can make it through. With prayer, God's grace, and a little gumption, we may be able to implement the new household schedule!




When I said I was behind...seriously, I'm way behind. Of my five things listed last week, only 1/2 of one got done. Yikes. I'm going to re-state a few of last week's goals, and adopt them for this week:

1. Resume daily Bible study. I'll be starting an online study called Believing God, by Beth Moore. It's offered through LifeWay Christian Resources, and I think it'll be really good!

2. Clean out microwave, refrigerator, oven. Yuck. Must be done, or the mutated life forms that emerge might take over our house.

3. Hang dining room valance.

4. Put all laundry away! I have three laundry baskets full of clean, folded clothes. Why can I never just get them put away right after I fold them?!

5. Sort Wendy's clothes. I really need to see what she's got in terms of spring/summer for this year, and for fall/winter next year. I like to shop the end-of-season clearance sales.





Our menu for the next two weeks is going to be bare-bones kind of cooking. We're trying to get our food budget to a workable level, and the last half of the month is always more difficult.

You may notice that every Thursday night we go over to my parents' house. That's because Thursday night Survivor and Lost are on. We're big fans, but our TV is dying, and it's getting pretty fuzzy. If you watch Lost, you can imagine that watching it on a fuzzy TV is less than wonderful. My parents are also fans, so we head over there for dinner and a night of stranded-on-a-deserted-island television.

Monday - Oven-fried chicken, green beans, brown rice

Tuesday - Spaghetti

Wedneday - Pork chops, peas, mashed potatoes

Thursday - dinner at Mom & Dad's - to be determined

Friday - Smoked sausage, mac & cheese, broccoli, applesauce (one of James's favorite meals)

Saturday - Baked chicken, mashed potatoes, green beans

Sunday - leftovers

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Who said that?

Have you ever felt like God was trying to tell you something? Well, James and I have been trying to figure out our tight financial situation. We were discussing it this morning on the way to church, and about how it might be necessary for me to work outside the home for a short while - something we DON'T want to have to do.

We get to church, and my parents hand us a check that we weren't expecting.

There's an announcement in the bulletin for a potential bring-Wendy-along temporary kind of job.

And the lesson? About financial stewardship.

Hmm. I think we have some thinking and praying to do.

And I think, just maybe, God was tapping on my shoulder, and whispering in my ear, "TRUST ME."

Saturday, February 16, 2008

Andrew's Sour Cream Peach Pie

I don't have anything enlightening to share today, so I thought I'd post a recipe, as so many of you do on Saturday! This recipe comes from Andrew, husband of Tiffany from Snapshots of Life. It sounds a little iffy, but it's really, really good. Surprisingly good. Seriously. You should make some.

Andrew's Sour Cream Peach Pie

1 cup sugar
1 cup sour cream
5 Tbsp flour
1 - 29oz. can of sliced peaches
Cinnamon and Sugar mixture to taste.

In medium bowl, stir together sugar, sour cream, and flour until creamy and smooth. Add cinnamon and sugar if desired.

In 9" pie pan, lay bottom crust. Add drained peach slices. Spoon sour cream mixture over the top. Add top crust and seal edges. Cut vent holes in top crust. (Andrew cuts it into a smiley face.) I always sprinkle plenty of cinnamon & sugar over the crust, just because it's yummy.

Bake at 450 for 15 minutes.
Lower heat to 350 for an additional 45 minutes. Let cool and serve.

Friday, February 15, 2008

Valentine's Day

Since James worked yesterday, and was otherwise incapacitated with back pain, we're celebrating V-Day today. We're going to drop the munchkin off at Grandma's, then go out to lunch, come home & watch "The Bourne Identity," from Netflix, then go pick up the munchkin again.

That may not sound like much to you, but my munchkin is almost 17 months old. In that time, James and I have not had a date. At all. Period. I have not been to a restaurant without a high chair, bib, wipes, sippy cups, toddler forks, gigantic bag, and lots of noise/mess/chaos. I told James not long ago that it isn't really advantageous to me for us to go out with Wendy - I mean, sure, I don't have to clean, but instead I've got to juggle keeping her fed/amused/quiet with my own eating, and somehow manage not to tick off all the other restaurant patrons. No, given the options, I'd rather eat at home.

But today, for our child-free few hours, we're going to a big people restaurant. Like big people. We can just tell the hostess, "2 for non-smoking," instead of, "2-plus-a-high-chair, non-smoking." We will be able to peruse the menu. We will be able to talk without being interrupted. And the talk will be more substantial than, "Did you see where her cup landed? Can you hand me the wipes?"

This is big, people.

There might even be hand-holding.

**My comment notification e-mails aren't going through. If you commented and I didn't respond, I'm sorry! Hopefully it'll fix itself soon!

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Compassion


I really should have posted these links earlier in the week. A couple of my favorite bloggers are in Uganda this week, seeing firsthand the work that Compassion does for children there. You should read the posts, look at the pictures, pray for these children, then go sponsor one (or more.)

Shannon at Rocks in my Dryer
Sophie at BooMama

Seriously, go read their posts from the last several days. You will be touched and motivated. And it's OK if you cry a little when you read the stories of these children & families...I did, too.

Revamped Schedule




I think I've finally figured out a workable schedule for our no-morning-nap household. It was tricky; I've really come to rely on a couple of Wendy-free hours in the morning. But now that she's a little older, she can start "helping" me with chores, so maybe it won't be so bad.


I'm going to institute some new policies that I think will help quite a bit:


1. No TV during the day. Not even PBS kids.


2. No firing up the computer until Wendy's afternoon nap (by which point the chores will already be done). I realize I'm on the computer now, but we haven't implemented the new schedule yet, so we're ok. :-)


3. Regularly scheduled times for meals & snacks. We've fallen into the eating-whenever-we're -hungry trap, and that doesn't do much for maintaining a schedule, or healthy habits, for that matter.


4. One (or more) loads of laundry every day. Sort, wash, dry, fold, and PUT AWAY.


5. All meals & snacks in the dining room.


I think if I stick to all of that, and the daily schedule & weekly chore chart I've put together, our household will be much more peaceful. It'll take awhile for it to become routine, and for us to get out of the rut we're in, but once it starts working, I think the rewards will be great!

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

WFMW - cloth diaper information


As the cost of diapers increases by the week, and my girlie is nowhere near potty training (she's only 16.5 months), we are planning to switch to cloth diapers very soon. I may have tried this from the beginning, had it not been for the horror stories my mother and others of her generation have passed down.

I asked one of my friends from college for information, since she exclusively used cloth diapers for her daughter who is now almost completely potty trained. She had some excellent suggestions and references for me. After reading and researching, I'm excited to make the switch as soon as our budget allows!

I thought I'd pass this along for any of you who have considered cloth diapering and don't know how to start, or who are looking for ways to save money/help the environement.

First, I'd suggest checking out the tutorial at Jillian's Drawers. This easy-to-understand tutorial goes through reasons for using cloth, how to start, how to clean, cost comparison, and many other things. It's really helped take the anxiety out of it for me!

Next, Abby's Lane has a great selection of cloth diapering products - whether you're interested in prefolds & covers, AIOs, pocket diapers, or swim diapers. (See? Before I read that tutorial, none of that would've made sense to me.) They also have free shipping on orders over $50.

It's a good idea to check out Diaper Swappers as well; you can get gently used cloth diapering products here. This would be an especially good idea if you're not sure what style of cloth diaper you'd like to use. Buy it used, try it out, and go from there.

My experienced friend also recommended that I start with minimal supplies - a dozen prefolds, a few different styles of covers, and a pocket diaper or two. That way I won't be stuck with something I really don't like.

I hope this information will help you! I'll be sure to post more once we make the switch - I can't wait! (WFMW is usually posted at Rocks in my Dryer. Since Shannon's in Uganda, Melanie of Don't Try This At Home is guest-hosting.)

Previous WFMW posts:
Getting your digital pictures printed
Creating a closet
Diaper bag supplies
Drafty windows
Keeping track of medication
Easy meal ideas
Using tomato paste

Monday, February 11, 2008

God Our Father

*I apologize in advance that this is kinda long. It's been rattling around in my head for awhile, and I was called to write it down for you this evening.*

This evening Wendy was trying our patience. She has fully entered toddlerhood, and, during the waking hours, is never still for more than a few seconds at a time. Instead, she is constantly climbing, dancing, falling, stomping, climbing more, throwing, giggling, and running. This has complicated our evening Bible reading. Gone are the days of rocking her while she drowsily drinks the last bottle of the day, her Daddy's deep voice filling her ears with the word of God. No, now we just try to keep her in the same room with us during our reading.

Tonight our reading was interrupted twice because Wendy is fascinated with cups of water. She climbed up onto the couch and grabbed my cup of water, sitting on the end table beside the couch. (In her defense, I was using a Veggie Tales cup.) Lacking the motor control necessary for the task, she tried to take a sip, and instead doused herself, the couch, the end table, and the Kleenex box on the end table. This resulted in tears, a gentle scolding, an explanation of why we don't grab Mommy's cup, and a resumption of the reading.

Not two minutes later, her little hand shot out, grabbed the cup again, and instantly upended it, narrowly missing the digital camera and cell phone I hadn't yet put away. The look on her face was one of shock. The tears were almost instantaneous. And as I reached for her to give her a swat on the bottom and a not-so-gentle scolding, I said, "Why do you have to make things so difficult?"

Indeed.

I have said that to her before, and every time, it makes me think of God, our Father, watching the things we do. He has given us guidelines, blessed our lives with material things, and granted us the pleasure and support of family and friends. I know that there are truly difficult decisions in all of our lives that must be dealt with, but the majority of the decisions are pretty simple. We either do the right thing, or we don't. We either abstain, or we do the wrong thing. That's pretty basic stuff.

When I said that to Wendy, and imagined God saying it to me, over and over every day, I was reminded of Hosea 11. I was fortunate enought to take a Bible class at Harding entitled, "8th Century Prophets." It was taught by Dr. Dale Manor. I didn't really know anything about the subject or the instructor when I signed up for the class; I chose it because it was an evening class, freeing up my weekdays, and my best friend and her husband were taking it.

Hosea is like many other books of prophecy in the Old Testament. God's people were led astray, and must be brought back and/or punished. It is a recurring theme throughout the Old Testament.

In Hosea 11, however, God speaks of Israel as a beloved child. The imagery is beautiful, and heartbreaking, and convicting. It is directed specifically at Israel, but I can imagine that God feels the same about each and every one of us, every one of His children who stray.

Hosea 11

1 "When Israel was a child, I loved him,
and out of Egypt I called my son.
2 But the more I called Israel,
the further they went from me.
They sacrificed to the Baals
and they burned incense to images.
3 It was I who taught Ephraim to walk,
taking them by the arms;
but they did not realize
it was I who healed them.
4 I led them with cords of human kindness,
with ties of love;
I lifted the yoke from their neck
and bent down to feed them.

5 "Will they not return to Egypt
andwill not Assyria rule over them
because they refuse to repent?
6 Swords will flash in their cities,
will destroy the bars of their gates
and put an end to their plans.
7 My people are determined to turn from me.
Even if they call to the Most High,
he will be no means exalt them.

8 "How can I give you up, Ephraim?
How can I hand you over, Israel?
How can I treat you lke Admah?
How can I make you like Zeboiim?
My heart is changed within me;
all my compassion is aroused.
9 I will not carry out my fierce anger,
nor will I turn and devastate Ephraim.
For I am God, and not man -
the Holy One among you.
I will not come in wrath.
10 They will follow the Lord;
he will roar like a lion.
When he roars,
his children will come trembling from the west.
11 They will come trembling
like birds from Egypt,
like doves from Assyria.
I will settle them in their homes,"
declares the Lord.

At the beginning of the chapter, two specific things are mentioned - sacrificing to Baals and burning incense to images. Even a casual Bible student would know that those two things are specifically forbidden; we are to have no gods except the one true God. We are to worship no other, sacrifice to no other, and revere no other. That much was surely made plain to the Israelites, and yet, time and time again, they fell into the same traps of paganism and idolatry.

"Why do you have to make things so difficult?"

The imagery in verse 3 is so touching and so bittersweet. A loving father, holding chubby toddler hands and gently leading so a beloved child can learn to walk. That same child, scornfully turning away in defiance, not even acknowledging the gifts of the Father. How many times are we like that child? How many times do we refuse to acknowledge God's hand in our lives? We claim our victories as our own, not giving credit to the One who gives us everything.

"Why do you have to make things so difficult?"

God contemplates the destruction of Israel. If His children will turn from him, there will be no forgiveness. And yet, in verse 8, God speaks of His children with yearning. How can I give you up? How can I let you be destroyed? God's compassion for His people changes everything; instead of destroying them, He stays His hand, and leads them to safety and rest.

We are God's children. He loves us, and gave His only Son for us - and yet we frustrate Him to no end. We ignore His dictates. We take credit for His deeds. We tune out His voice. We go against the things He has taught us. We see the way He has prepared for us, and we stubbornly go in the opposite direction.

But God, our Father, shows us infinite grace, infinite compassion, infinite mercy, and infinite love. He has more patience than we can fathom. He knows every part of us, even the sinful thoughts we don't act on, our pettiness, our selfishness, our laziness, and our greed - and he still shows us that grace, compassion, mercy, and love.

"Our Father in heaven, hallowed be your name..."

Our Sunny Saturday

Monday

I think this week might turn out to be our first normal week in about a month. After friends coming and going, a severe cold taking hold of us, and then recovering from the aftermath, I think we're close to being back on track. Wendy has indeed given up her morning nap, so I'm trying to accomodate having my oh-so-helpful "helper" around all morning long!

Here are the things I'd like to accomplish this week:

1. Get back to my daily personal Bible study. It's been weeks. And I had only been doing it for a couple of weeks at that point, so it wasn't really a habit yet. I'm planning to take my quiet time when Wendy first goes down for her nap.

2. Hang dining room valance. We've only been in our house for a year and a half - it's about time I put up the valance. I've had it for months. All I need to do is iron it and hang the rod.

3. Clean out fridge, microwave, and oven. If I wouldn't be totally shamed at my level of housekeeping, I'd post pictures - seriously, it's icky.

4. Clean our room. We've got this gigantic old wall unit thing in our bedroom. It's huge. It used to live in our living room and hold all of our TV stuff, pictures, games, puzzles, CDs, and stereo equipment. Like I said, it's a big piece of furniture. In our current house, it works best in our bedroom, but it's definitely a clutter-catcher. I need to clean it out, sort through the stuff, and get it organized.

5. Sort Wendy's clothes. It would be good to know where she stands on 2T things, so that I can shop sales for next winter's clothes. I'm going to try to cut back on the sheer volume of her clothes, so I need to have a good idea of what she's already got.






Meals for this week:

Monday: leftover Chicken Enchilada Casserole

Tuesday: Chicken Pot Pie, applesauce



Friday: Beef Stroganoff, green beans

Saturday: Spaghetti, garlic bread, salad

Sunday: Breakfast for lunch - hard-boiled eggs, sausage, biscuits, gravy, fruit. Yum!

Sunday, February 10, 2008

Linky love

I just stumbled upon a blog called Mental Tesserae. The first post I read was fantastic, and lyrical, and a suitable commentary on our culture. I subscribed to the blog via Bloglines, and started reading some of the previous posts.

And boy, am I amused.

The author, Julie, has a daughter who is 20 months old. Wendy is almost 17 months old, so the similarities are plain. Her stories about her daughter were making me giggle so much that the cats thought I had finally lost it.

Here are some excerpts that I found especially amusing:

"Then came Saturday (hereafter known as black Saturday) when I realized that my daughter had in fact not learned to aparate from room to room, she had merely learned to hug the corner of the crib and swing her legs over the railing to freedom. She had also picked up the useful skill of turning a doorknob and opening her door. (Who taught her to do this?!! Has she been sneaking out at night to attend secret Baby Club meetings? What other tricks does she have up her fuzzy-pink-polyester-sleeper sleeve?)." from "She escapes!"

"Just for good measure, after you've been properly bandaided and cuddled and set free again, wait until your mom is busy wiping bloody spots off the floor and go fall down the stairs. Make sure you don't hurt yourself, but give your mom's friend a good healthy complex. She'll think her house is a death trap. I'm sure she'll be ready to invite you back again real soon." from "How to make a lasting impression."

Don't take my word for it - go check her out yourself!

You LIKE Me...


...okay, well, Nichole does, anyway! She has given me the Excellent Blog award! I'm so flattered! I have a long speech prepared, but I'll spare you and just keep it to myself. The fun thing about this award is that I get to pass it on! So here goes...

I will give the Excellent Blog award to:

The Queen B (I know you just got this award recently, but I've really enjoyed your humor and recipes!)




I've really enoyed reading these blogs on a near-daily basis. So congrats, y'all, and pass the award along!

Saturday, February 9, 2008

My Biggest Problem

I've been having a lot of internal struggles lately, some of which I've made public. My battle with depression is an ongoing one, complete with all the ups and downs that everyone who deals with depression experiences. My struggle with my weight has so far been losing battle, but I think, with lots of support, that it isn't insurmountable.

There's another fairly major internal struggle I've been facing, and it comes down to one thing: I don't trust God enough.


I think the majority of my personal struggles can really be summed up in a lack of trust. Phrasing it that way opens my eyes to my own limitations and sinful nature. I am selfish and arrogant, and think that I can handle anything life throws at me all by myself, thank-you-very-much. Be it depression, unhealthy lifestyles, financial difficulties, or struggling to conceive, I somehow think, deep down, that if I can just figure out what to do and how to do it, the problems will be solved.

A mindset like this is a perfect path to disappointment, unfulfillment, dissatisfaction, and dismay. I can't do it on my own. I can't figure it out on my own. I can't even figure out the next step to take on my own. Because you know what? I was never meant to do it on my own.

When God created us, He didn't make us perfectly capable. There are some things we just plain can't do. Instead we are to do the best we can, and constantly seek His will and His guidance through prayer and study. We are to TRUST GOD.

And if I can manage to do that, instead of trusting my incompetent self, I'll be much better off.

Thursday, February 7, 2008

Conflict of Interest

Wendy and I went on an excursion today - to Target. I say "excursion" because it usually takes us 40 minutes to get there. I remember the good old days of living in Jefferson City, Missouri, when we lived five minutes away from Wal-Mart, Target, Lowe's, Barnes & Noble, and Coldstone Creamery. What more do you need?? Well, we moved to middle Tennessee to be closer to family, and now we're much further from stores.

Anyway, the shopping trip was successful, and on the way out I stopped at Starbucks. Because, well, you just have to stop at Starbucks when you're leaving Target. I don't go to Starbucks that often, and I'm still in search of the perfect beverage, so I never know what I'm going to order.

I stepped up to the counter, and the nice girl said, "Good morning! What can I get for you?"

My eyes were darting back and forth over the menu, and I said, rather hesitantly, "I'd like a non-fat latte with the sugar-free hazelnut syrup. Oh, and a cheese danish."

What?? The girl looked at me, smiled, and rang up the order. All the while, I was thinking, "That's just ridiculous. A non-fat sugar-free latte and a cheese danish?? Talk about your basic conflict of interest!"

Those of you who know me in real life know that I'm quite overweight - and now all of you who don't know me in real life are shocked that I'm not 5'11" and 110 lbs, nicely tanned and with long blonde hair. I know, I'm shocked, too. :-) Anyway, I am fully aware of my health risks, especially since diabetes runs in my family, and especially since I had gestational diabetes while carrying Wendy. I know this. You know what I also know? I know I love cheese danishes.

I've joked with people that I wouldn't have trouble with my weight if food didn't taste so darn good. But seriously, if they could make a pill that would make everything you eat taste like, I don't know, canned spinach with no seasoning, I wouldn't have any trouble losing weight. Instead, my world is filled with homemade mac & cheese, brownies, mashed potatoes, bacon, peanut butter, and other assorted yummy things. On the canned-spinach-tasting diet, I could probably get completely in shape within 9 or 10 months. In the real world, however...sigh.

Oh, and just so you know, the people who make bras are not kind to women who are overweight without the bonus curves. Everyone expects that if you're overweight, your cup size should go up accordingly. Well, that may be the rule for the general population, but there are a few of us out there who are overweight and yet small-chested. It happens. It's very unfair. So someone should make bras that will fit us.

I'm getting off my soapbox now. And I'm really glad I didn't make those chocolate chip cookies I considered yesterday. If I had, I'd be polishing them off now.

Interesting story

I came across this story on CNN, and had to look - there is still a veterinarian inside me! To my surprise, the vet that is interviewed, who did the surgery on the kitty in the story, was a surgery resident where I went to vet school - she participated in the surgeries on my dog, Bella.

Just thought I'd share!

My Interview...

The Great Interview Experiment is finished! Go to the Baker Family to read my interview. Thanks, Lisa!

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

An Interview...

I mentioned a couple of days ago that I was going to participate in The Great Interview Experiment over at Citizen of the Month. The idea behind the experiment is that everybody is Somebody, and should be interviewed at least once in their lives.

I have interviewed Julie Scott, or Burgundy Skies, of the group blog Pererro. Julie has had an interesting life, with a somewhat convoluted path. Without further ado, here's the inside scoop:

1. If you had to pick one thing that initiated your change from "liberal, neo-pagan, feminist, druggie, wiccan-high-priestess" to "conservative, Christian, post-feminist, clean and (mostly) dry stay-at-home mom" what would it be? What was the catalyst for the change?

Now there's a difficult one. I've been trying to document this change in my "My Life (or something like it)" series, and if there is one thing I've learned it's that change for me is more a process - and a really long term process at that. I suppose you could say the major players were God and David. I can't really narrow it down more than that because I think God put David into my life, but it was also through David that I learned that God loved me, even if I was a neo-pagan with a substance abuse problem. If I had to pick an event, I'd probably say my near death experience, because there's nothing like coming out of an alcoholic coma to find the only people that helped you were your crazy Christian friends to make you really reassess your priorities.

2. What is the last book you read? Did you like it? Why? Should I read it?

Well, I'm currently reading David's 3rd or 4th draft of his ambitious Sci-Fi/coming of age novel, but that's nowhere near publication yet, although I am enjoying it.

The last published novel I read was "The Way of a Man with a Maid". Yes, I liked it. Both for naughty reasons and because it IS really well written Victorian fiction. However, I suggest you skip the last section. Really, unless you are already a fan of Victorian erotica, you should probably skip it altogether and go read some Jane Austen instead. If you are not a fan of 1800s literature at all, well, then... I can't help you. I love the stuff.

3. If you could take a 2 week vacation anywhere in the world, where would it be? Who would go with you? What would you do?

That's a tough one. If it was truly anywhere in the world, I think I'd go on a mad plane trip to as many fabulous locations as I could squeeze in to two weeks. If I HAVE to pick just one - I'd really, really like to on a walkabout in New Zealand. Of course David and the Boo would have to come with me. We would hike through the beautiful flora and fauna of New Zealand, take pictures, sample local foods, and have a grand adventure.

4. List the ingredients in the perfect sandwich.

This might just be impossible. Next to bananas, sandwiches are probably the world's most perfect food. How else can you devour all the food groups at once? Unless it involves mayo or Kraft American cheese, I've rarely met a sandwich I didn't like. I think I can narrow down the field, though.

Hot - Fresh from the oven French bread, the spiciest mustard you can find, lean pastrami cut paper thin, and thick slices of Sonoma pepper jack.

Cold - Authentic San Francisco sourdough bread, Dijon mustard, thick sliced beefsteak tomatoes, pan fried center cut bacon, sliced avocado, and oven roasted turkey breast in nice thick slices.

For some reason, I hate mixing cheese and veggies on a sandwich - I hadn't noticed until now, but I usually have one or the other, but not both.

5. You just woke up, it's 9 a.m., and you have an appointment at 9:30 a.m. What's your strategy for getting there on time?


Well, that depends on where it is, doesn't it? We live relatively far from anywhere - even trying to make it to the nearest grocery store by 9:30 would be pretty pointless if I've just woken up at 9. So, I guess there is no strategy. I'd call whoever it is that I'm going to be late to meet and find out if it's okay if I come later or if I can reschedule the appointment. My husband is notoriously unconcerned about actually getting places on time unless it is going to cost him money not to be there, and I've found that the attitude is contagious.

6. Early Bird or Night Owl? Have you always been this way? Why?

Both. In a perfect world I would sleep from about 10am - 6pm. I consume large amounts of caffeine to get through a normal work day schedule. I think I always have because that's the sleeping schedule I've always adopted when left to my own devices (i.e. over summer vacation). I blame genetics - my dad appears to have similar circadian rhythms.

7. What is one thing you would not eat at a dinner party, even if your hostess had painstakingly prepared it just for you?

Anything with onions. If I eat them you will not see much of me at the dinner party, and the hostess will probably have to hire a haz-mat crew to clean her bathroom afterwards.

8. Do you buy organic products? Why or why not?

Sometimes. I'm kind of a lazy whole foods person. If it's there I'll buy it because I hate the idea of eating something I can't pronounce or my food having weird chemicals in it, but not so much I'm going to put a whole lot of effort into it. (Also, Twinkies are yummy.)

However, I do go out of my way to buy organic whole wheat spaghetti because it's healthier than regular pasta and once you get used to the taste, regular pasta tastes pretty bland.

9. When you were 9 years old, what did you want to be when you grew up?

Oh gosh. Why 9? 9 was a bad year for me. My dog died, my best friend moved away, one of my other friends was taken out of school by child services because her dad beat her, my mom had breast cancer, my dad gave me my first shot of whiskey (yeah, that was a great year to introduce me to that!).... I think at 9 I had way too much to think about in the present to even consider the future. Besides, I already had everyone telling me what I should be when I grew up - my dad wanted me to be a poet, my choir director wanted me to be a musical theater star, my teacher wanted me to be a famous writer, my aunt wanted me to be a teacher...

Which leads nicely into your next question...

10. What kind of dreams do you have for your children?

I don't. I catch myself doing it every once in awhile and then I stop myself. My dreams are for me, my child is free to dream for herself. Besides, my daughter is a huge dreamer - I'd hardly want to limit her. Her current plan to be a robotics engineer/farmer/veterinarian/famous philanthropist is already far more ambitious than anything I could come up with and I say more power to her. (She's even got it worked out that she will build robots on her farm while tending to her own animals and using the profits to set up a charity organization to help the poor.)

11. What kind of old woman will you be one day?

Hopefully the kind that looks great for her age, goes on hikes in the foothills, dances with her husband, and keeps her nose out of other people's business, but is always ready to drop everything to help a good friend.

The Calm after the Storm

Well, it was a long night. Or a short one, if you're considering hours of sleep. There were three different systems with radar-indicated tornadoes that came within 5 miles of us, and we ended up spending a bit of time tucked up against our stairs, with blankets, pillows, laptop, cell phones, wallets, and, of course, the baby. By the grace of God, the storms seemed to go just outside of the populated areas, so we don't have any damage (that I can see from inside, anyway).

I was worried about Matilda, the outside cat, but she's on the front porch wondering where her breakfast is.

Thank you for your prayers - it was a stressful night. It's never good to hear the weather people say repeatedly over the course of several hours that your town is right in line for a direct hit with a storm with winds >100 mph, 2" hail, and multiple spots of very strong rotation. Scary.

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

Pass the Prozac.

Can I just say that I hate nights like this?? I was hoping that, in moving to Tennessee, we'd be leaving behind the tornadoes and stuff. Apparently I was wrong. We're in between "supercells" now, and the TV crews are reporting on all the damages and injuries that these storms have already caused. My parents live 12 miles from here, and just south of them was a tornado - both radar-indicated and visualized - that's now headed straight for Nashville. The first storm pretty much bypassed us, and it looks like we'll only have a glancing blow from the next one.

And then, to the west of us about a hundred miles, is big, thick line of angry reds and deep purples. A solid line. Did I mention it's a thick line? That line isn't going to miss us. It's going to hit us. In an hour or so. Yikes.


We have discovered that our town does, in fact, have tornado sirens. Or maybe that should be singular, siren. We live less than a mile from the two schools in town, the fire department, and city hall - and yet we could barely hear the tornado siren. We live directly across from the elementary school - wouldn't ya think they'd put a siren near the school?? I sure would.

I have always had a fear of thunderstorms. I spent many a summer night tucked under my Dad's arm in bed, convinced that the lightning was going to shoot through the window and set the bed on fire. Or the wind was going to blow the roof off. Or other such calamities. The advent of easily available radar has really helped my fear of storms...except on nights like this, when I have so much to look forward to...

Here's to a sleepless night. Hope things are calm where you are.

Great Interview Experiment

I came across a blog called Citizen of the Month, where you can participate in the Great Interview Experiment. Basically, you sign up there and interview someone, someone else interviews you, and the interviews are posted on your respective blogs. Fun! Go there and sign up!

Monday, February 4, 2008

Super Bowl ads

If you happened to miss some of the commercials last night, Time has a handy recap. Enjoy!

It failed before we even started...

I wrote a week and a half ago about my need for a routine and organization to help me accomplish what I need to and keep us on track. Well, that day was the last day we had before we all got sick. It wasn't the flu, but a cold severe enough to almost be like the flu. Wendy was hit the worst, I think; it's pitiful to hear a toddler laugh weakly and then go into a five-minute, red-faced coughing/gagging fit. Poor baby.

Today is the first day we've all been well. And so, today I deal with the aftermath...the toys that didn't get picked up, the tissues and half-drunk tea, the sweaters and afghans that were pulled on and then pulled off of feverish bodies. And the kitchen...sigh. Sometimes I despair of ever having a truly clean kitchen.

In the midst of this, Wendy has apparently outgrown her morning nap. She's only taken afternoon naps for the past three days, and even those haven't been very long. This makes me very sad. I'm not ready for her to be done with her morning nap!! I really look forward to those couple of hours of peace & quiet...I guess I'll learn to manage, as all mothers have since the beginning of time!

I guess my whole point in sitting down to write today was to give an update. Not only have we not tried out the new schedule due to illness, but the schedule will have to be revamped, if Wendy is really going to give up her morning nap. Sigh. As soon as I get the house/laundry under control, I'll work out a new schedule, and we'll give it a go.

Friday, February 1, 2008

Friday Fun!

I'm still sick, and I'll spare you the gory details, but it's icky. It's hard to think when your skull is two sizes too small for the ever-increasing quantities of snot. Okay, really, I'll spare you the gory details.

As a result of my muddle-headedness, I'm going to take a break from my normal enlightening, thought-provoking, soul-searching, epiphanizing (I don't know if that's a word, but if not, it should be), captivating writing, and instead post about some things I like. Enjoy.

First of all, I came across this video today, and I don't quite remember which sequence of links got me there. Anyway, it's a toddler girl in trouble. While my girlie isn't quite communicating that well, yet, I can totally see her in this same situation. Especially when the Dad asks if she thinks it's funny, and she nods...

Second, have you seen this? It's a thing of beauty, my friends, the kind of thing that housewives and SAHMs dream about. Makes me wish, even though I know we can't afford it, that our Old Faithful would kick the bucket. No diamonds or furs for me, please - a high-efficiency, water-conserving, chip-resistant, front-loading wonder is the way to my heart!

And third, Ranch dressing. I'll spare you and not have a link for this one. This only comes up because the only thing we have in the house for dinner is frozen pizza, and we're out of Ranch dressing. Prior to college, I would've thought that was no big deal, but in post-Harding years, it's a tragedy. Pizza must be served with Ranch dressing - it's an unwritten rule.

Fourth, Scrabulous. I use the Facebook application of Scrabulous to play online Scrabble with friends from around the world. The great thing about it is that you don't have to be online at the same time; games can stretch over the course of several days. Also - if you're not on Facebook, you should check it out. I've reconnected with so many friends from college and even high school of whom I had completely lost track.

And now, dear readers, I must away, to preheat the oven for the Ranch-dressing-free frozen pizza. Yum.

And the winner is...

Queen Mother! You've won a fantastic set of 3 Christian fiction books by Deeanne Gist, sure to entertain you when you should be doing something useful! :-)

Thank you to everyone who entered. Please come back and visit!